| It has been a while since I wrote my last journal here. I didn't even write anything on my last journal - I simply put pictures because I thought pictures worth more than words. Ah, whatever it means. A few months passed since then - I walked on the infamous stage to get my diploma on May 20th, 2006 in the a.m, I went home for two months, I went to a 10-days trip to Sechuan area, and I worked for 4 weeks then gave my two-weeks notice.  I also becoming more involved with facebook, friendters, Grey's Anatomy, Lost, House, McDreamy, McVet, McSteamy, and other McHots. The bottom line: I would like to meet McDreamy  ... AND probably McSteamy  when I'm bored with McDreamy's not-as-hot-body... and every now and then, I don't mind McVet  , even though, my heart will always be with McDreamy  ... McDreamy is currently ruining my McLife because of McStupid McGrey's season McThree  ... I feel like eating McDonald's now... anyone wants some hot McFries? Lately, I've been trying to pack all my stuffs!  It was not easy the first month of working. Almost everyone asking me the same questions: "Why did you quit the job? Did you not like the job? Why did you decide to go home instead? Why why why?" I just simply miss Indo: missing my family, missing the Indo food, missing my friends (as much as I will miss my friends here in Boston), the bottom line: I'm pretty much missing everything about Jakarta! Sigh. Can't wait to go back, but I will surely miss my friends here in Boston. I've been here 7 years - that's a third of my life now. I just feel like putting some random pictures here... Halloween, Indonesian Cultural Night, NYC 10/14/05, NYC 11/10/06, Boston 11/11/06, and Kindergarden long time ago.           
I have come to realize that I need to make a decision that makes me happy, and not make a decision to make other people happy. I realize that I need to be selfish sometimes - not saying that being selfish is a good thing - but being selfish for the sake of self-happiness is important (I think). Happiness is a choice that we have to make. I mean, if you're not happy with what you're doing and you have other options (to do something else that might make you happy), you should think about the other options. I'm not saying that you should always drop and quit from your job if you're not happy with it because that means you're just taking the easy way. In my situation, it was not about the job because I liked the job. There were other factors. Let's just stop here. I don't feel like talking about this anymore. =P Hahaha. Finding happiness is like finding yourself. You don't find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness. Self-actualization is a process of discovering who you are, who you want to be and paving the way to happiness by doing what brings YOU the most meaning and contentment to your life over the long run.
This definition of happiness by David Leonhardt, The Happy Guy Realize that true happiness lies within you. Waste no time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside. Remember that there is no happiness in having or in getting, but only in giving. Reach out. Share. Smile. Hug. Happiness is a perfume you cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself.
This happy thought by speaker Og Mandino Happiness is contagious...when you reflect happiness, then all others around you catch the happy bug and are happy, too.
This definition of happiness by author Jennifer Lesse Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
This definition of happiness by Mahatma Gandhi Happiness is an inner state of well being. A state of well being enables you to profit from your highest: thoughts, wisdom, intelligence, common sense, emotions, health, and spiritual values in your life.
This happy thought by Lionel Ketchian. Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.
This happy quote by Thich Nhat Hanh
So what's new in my life other than I was having fun during Summer time then off working and stressing out about whether I should go home or not and finally decided that I wanted to go home? =) There's really nothing else new. I guess over the summer, I've come to realize how much I love my parents. =P How much I really want to spend more time with them! Don't you think it's a bit weird, I mean after 7 years (or probably my whole life - 22 year?)... I think the China trip really opened my eyes. And yes, I really like the Fray's song: How to Save a Life...
~How to Save a Life by The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk. He walks you say sit down it's just a talk. He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through. Some sort of window to your right. As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame. And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend. Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best. Cause after all you do know best. Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence. Lay down a list of what is wrong. The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you. And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend. Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice. You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road. Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things. He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same. And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend. Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend. Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life... How to save a life
Last Friday, me, Jasmine and Anne went to NYC for the day. On the way back, it took me 2.5 hours to drive, thanks to McNewJersey guy who we thought was driving by himself. Damn! So in the beginning, we were talking about how bad he drove - because he just cut here and there - but at the end, we were trying to chase each other. It was quite funny because the three of us thought he was alone - more reasons for me to just tag him along. BUT no no no, after a while, we suddenly saw (well not me - but Jas and Anne) a girl sitting next to him. Somewhere along the way, I really needed to go to the bathroom so I chose an exit, and what a coincidence, he needed to fill up gas too. After that, we didn't really see him until I needed to fill up gas and stopped by and saw his car pass by. I guess he was going to go to Boston after all. So yeah, I'm planning to go to Beijing to learn Chinese in February. Haven't applied yet but should not worry about that. Want to go to Shanghai but I guess I really want to study. Hahhahahaha. Oh well, we'll see, I doubt that I'll be studying! I just want to travel around. Want to explore Japan + China as much as I can. Want to explore the different cities, the different cultures and of course the different types of food that they offer, especially in Japan. I watched Babel over the weekend, and they had scenes in Tokyo - I just miss being there. I miss the clean-city, I miss hearing my Ipod while riding on the subway, I miss the food - especially the ramen, I miss hearing people speaking Japanese, I miss the onsen, I miss the tour, I miss Tokyo at night, I miss Roppongi, I miss Shibuya, I miss my family there, I miss the people + I miss the shopping and the sighseeing. I pretty much miss everything about Tokyo and its efficiency and its greatness. I really wish I can retire there someday - yes, when I have a lot of money. Sigh. This sounds very pathetic, don't you think? =) I really miss and really want to explore this particular country. Over the summer, I watched Asian Food network's series called Go Hokkaido Fishing! and Hokkaido. Basically, they talked about the different type of food offered in Hokkaido and the different varieties of fish and seafood. Sigh. AH! Bed time. I'm done with Xanga for today! For this week!
Current mood: missing Indo and Japan... |
